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01/20/2025 chii and autistic women

I recently finished chobits and wanted to jot my thoughts down about chii. i didnt think id like the anime that much but it ended up being a good watch (except for the padding of multiple recaps, a mid ending, and boring fillers in the middle of the series). i wanted to talk about my feelings towards chii and the relatabilty of her personality. girls with autism i think can relate a lot to her, or atleast i have in a deep way. the way chii devotes herself to one person in her life is something i also do. she lives life through him, experiences emotions through him, sensations and feelings are run through him and then thus into her like a conductive metal transporting an electric spark. this is how i feel with my boyfriend. life is overwhelming and sensations and feelings are often too intense for me to bare. i use him like a sheild almost, to transfer these feelings to me and live my life through him like a hesitant toe testing the pool water temp. i love how chii also lives like this in a very literal sense. relating to chii doesnt stop there, we both also operate in a see=do way. a lot of times i forget to do normal functions like eat or pee, act like a human at all. for example: i forget to eat but see an eating video on my feed, so i remember to eat. sometimes ill forget to show my boyfriend affection until i see an instagram reel or art of people kissing, then im reminded of the good feelings that come from a kiss, so i go to kiss him. although chii performs like this because shes a robot with a learning program, in a lot of ways it feels like im also a robot needing to remind my robot brain to be a human and fufill needs. miss chii knows to love and love deeply she does and so do i! i feel empathy and love and emotion, moreso than the normal person i think. even our living arangements are the same although i may be more of a neet than her..